I'm Back

I can't believe I'm blogging again. The first time I did a blog, I used it to vent. I gave very few people access to the address, so that I could say what I wanted to without fear that someone who didn't need to find it would. This time, I just feel like I need the therapy once again. But I think I can control my thoughts to a degree. Well, I can't control my thoughts, but at least I can control what I type in response to those thoughts. I just have a lot going on lately that I'm trying to process, and this is a good way to work through some things. I have always enjoyed writing. I think I have amazing things to say sometimes. I'm also very aware that not everyone feels that way about me or anyone else, for that matter. That's why I've always been leery of giving out my blog address or what not. I find it amazingly narcissistic that anyone would care about what I have to say about such things as fatherhood and the Miami Dolphins, as if somewhere in those misguided ramblings lies the cure for cancer.

But I'm done apologizing. If anyone wants to read, they will. If they don't, that's fine too. I'll keep writing. This is for me. I don't know how often I'll be tapping into this source. Something tells me that my time is already filled Sunday through Thursday. And Friday, often one of the last five things in the world I feel like doing is typing my thoughts. The other four happen to be waking up, so you can see where I'm coming from. If I do find the energy to get out of bed, it's only to move from one reclined position to another in the hope of finding the best spot in front of the TV to catch up on everything I missed.

That's what this blog is going to come to. It's going to be me rambling, moving all over the place, because that's how my brain is working these days. I find it more and more difficult to stay on task, partly because I always feel like I should be doing something. Then, when I am doing that, I feel like I should be doing something else. I have so much to say this week. I have milestones in fatherhood to work through, my thoughts on Haiti and the Christian response and, of course, the Miami Dolphins. But it's not going to happen today. I've got the juices flowing and it's not even 8:30. A quick trip to the bank, and I'm ready to take on the best the day has to offer. So my deepest thoughts are at least going to have to wait until after that.